Time for another daily dharma from Tricycle:

Gratitude

Gratitude, the simple and profound feeling of being thankful, is the foundation of all generosity. I am generous when I believe that right now, right here, in this form and this place, I am myself being given what I need. Generosity requires that we relinquish something, and this is impossible if we are not glad for what we have. Otherwise the giving hand closes into a fist and won’t let go.

– Sallie Jiko Tisdale, “As If There is Nothing to Lose”

I find myself feeling very quiet and serene when life is anything but that for me just now. A baby is a lot of work, my relationship with my husband is a work in progress as is my relationship with myself. But it feels like I’ve stripped away all the worthless crap in my life, and am finally only worried about what truly matters. All things are not wonderful in my world – there are financial, marital and family issues that I’ve dealt with for a long time, and they ain’t going anywhere anytime soon. Such is my lot. Things in my life don’t ever work out as planned, easy turns into complex and to be honest, I’m a pretty jaded person because of all that.

And yet.

For the first time I feel I can let all of that go. I’ve apparently made a choice not to clutter my life with any of my stupid baggage any more. I don’t know how or when I made it, but it’s done. I had no idea one of the things I’d get out of this motherhood deal was a new lease on my own life. So here I go about my tiny little day, being grateful…and damn, does it feel good.

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